Sunday, 28 December 2008

the center can hold.


i gather my

fragmented shadows,

write a tragedy in an act

and bring us back.

for you mon coeur, i must

find a way back into this skin.

i have missed you.

time was fleeting

and my spirit

though blithe and hopeful,

stifled

like a drudge

in oppressive academia,

was singing a monody

to an untimely

grave.
darling theater,

in your name i reclaim my center.

 

a chuckle...

With this post I hope to accomplish a couple of things:

1. Provide this blog the requested chuckle.

2. Share a funny yet didactic video that all must see in order to know the value of chilling. It seems that these guys could learn a thing or two.

Wednesday, 24 December 2008

Dreamers...

I see what is not before me. Hear voices in the silence. The world is my reflector and the mirrors pierce my organs. Sparkling titillation.


You think of me,

Approaching-

Jagged glass protruding from each orifice


You cower

Down.


For comfort, you tell yourself.

I see.


But what of us dreamers?

Eye sockets in-verted

by glass

Do you judge our glazed expression? Think us

vacant

Charmers.

This is pure

allure.


Walk around in our breath.

A child sans ploy. An adult sans image.

Very, very, veritable.


For me, for me, formidable.



I HAVE A BIG EGO.

I used to smile, because I have a big ego. I would hear them discuss my demureness in front of me and my whole body would hic-cupp, internal goosebumps would grip me. And I smiled. I smiled to conceal the ugliness that could have slipped out in my words and actions. I concealed this huge ego for their comfort, until the ego broke the leash with the passing years.

The alter ego spoke to my being and said the world may try to put me in a box but my ego is too big, my alter ego too wide, my mind won't fit. I became my own teacher of life and found that when people believe you are too nice to be bossy, too this to be that, then they think of you as a limited thing incapable of experiencing the whole spectrum of emotion available to a full human being walking this earth. And chilling has pushed me to converse with all the voices in my head. Example?

  Well, Leungo is sweet, polite and prudent. I am he. Donald is sensual, confrontational and has a big ego. I am he. They are not alone in me - I have the core 'ego', alter ego and many other phantoms, spirits and angels that converse in the deepest part of me in a chant that the universe cannot comprehend because we do not have those languages yet. I am complicated. I am a chiller. Watchu gawn do 'bout it? Nada, methinks.



Tuesday, 23 December 2008

Imagine...


...
Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world

You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one

-John Lennon

Chilling and Its Potential for Social Change


Have Henrik and Nigel made a potentially revolutionary discovery? Yes, of course understanding how the stars affect the increasingly complex and paramount issue of global climate change is wonderful. But does chilling present the same sort of potential global change in the social realm of human existence? I think yes.

Imagine if you would a world in which we all chilled. Can you even? It's quite hard I think, because each of our realities is in some way predetermined or influenced by some other individual's desires (be it parents, friends, colleagues, bosses) or some confluence of individual desires (be it the perpetuation of institutional racism, heteronormativity, capitalism). But what if we all retired from scheming, controlling, and conquering each others' personal autonomy and just chilled out. Imagine! Chilling: a prescription for revolutionary social change and an end to global suffering. Ambitious? Naive? Impractical? Let's find out together. Chillers of the world unite!

High Hopes



Dear W,

How are you old blood? It is odd to write to you without you here. You have been extracted from within and shipped away and still I seek in-sight, though you can see me no longer. You lurk only in my subconscious. You prey upon my mind and inform my fantastic dreams more than the words and visions of any waking hour. Enchanté Queen Mab.

May I ask of you, dear reader-

Do you gro
w into the Ego?
I'm Id
imp-piqued.


Of late the internal has invaded and physicalities cease to be. While the body struts the stage, the poor player that it is, the psyched puppeteer is amused by the farce.

But living in my mind has made me self-obsessed, so let me turn to you
my dearest double- you.

I mimic you in your absence. I conjure you up within me asleep and revert to you with those I love, like I cannot when I am awake. Just yesterday I spoke/smoked with Anju. It is bizarre to share your company now with the descendant of discipline’s stalwart. My need to break away with those who I love but will never understand me? And the day before, I was in the flat. You, me and Zee. First cigarette simulation? To be with friends who grow into you.

We will meet very soon. Chilla Numero Uno and you and me, dear W.

….a chiller trinity…..

Monday, 22 December 2008

HAMBA, JUBA! ( GO, DOVE)



Dear Incredible / If...

If indeed you are in our hearts, how the hell did you get in there? Sometimes I am serious. This is one of those rare times when prudence moves out of feeling's way, and anger chills my heart into stone. And briefly I want to say that if I cannot amount to anything of worth in your eyes, it is neither my fault nor necessarily true; if my art negates my critical, intellectual and scientific faculties as far as you are concerned, fine; if calling you invites you to insult our callings, convictions and couth, you need not worry about any more unwanted invitations; if our laughter is a lack of dignity, we have nothing to apologise for; if my privateness be a curse and your judgement be friendship, then this love we had for you has just begun to keep a record of wrongs. If you're a dove, I beg you to take your thoughts to flight and leave us in peace. 

ChillahsUnited

On the red carpet-

Catching up with the stars, we were able to ascertain just how they accomplished the fine essaying of these roles.

Q.C.: During late adolescence we were magnetized, almost, to the notion of refrigerated melodrama. It invokes all that is vibrant and yet mellow and cooled within the human subconscious. The metaphorical fridge is always open. Spice and nourishment from the world's far reaches are being added, with herb to taste, and each morsel is savored. In culmination, then, we become true chillers in every sense of the word. Cool from inside out we are enchanted by the suspense that awaits our person.

As you should be. So do stay tuned
.

BEAUTY

Beauty is a pretty face
Beauty is a brand new vase
Beauty is lovely hair
Beauty is an oak wooden chair
Beauty is a graceful smile
Beauty is a great sense of style

Beauty is a fragrant smell
Beauty is a 5 star hotel
Beauty is a nice toned body
Beauty surely isn’t shoddy

Beauty is sleek smooth skin
True beauty is deep within

Chizom Okpara

launching...




chill⋅er (dictionary.com)

–-noun
1. a person or thing that chills.
2. Informal. a frightening or suspenseful story or film; melodrama.
3. a device for cooling or refrigerating.

Origin:
1790–1800; chill + -er 1